Night out. All of us. Nearly.

June 9, 2012

We went to a wedding tonight, the first time we’ve all been at a social event in longer than I can remember.

It was nice. I like weddings and this was a lovely one. I’m hopeless at small talk and I hate dressing up but a baby solves both those problems and at least now I can go out and enjoy it. That’s an improvement. It was beautifully planned and done and full of happy.

It felt rather as if along with 3 girls and a baby boy, we all took a beautiful young woman with us.

Then as I was taking photos of the 5 of them together, someone took the camera and offered to take a photo of all of us.

All of us.

There hasn’t been a photo of all of us, all the living, breathing Raymonds, since a day in the SCBU unit. I haven’t let there be.

But I couldn’t say no, not there, not at that moment.

So here is a picture of all of us. Some with feet on the floor and one who was in my mind as the button got pressed on a rather blurry, but highly significant picture that we all smiled for.

All of us.

Nearly.

Tags: family life after child loss, grief and parenthood, moving on, the space in the family

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11 Responses to Night out. All of us. Nearly.

Mrs Hojo on June 9, 2012 at 8:15 am

I can see him there. xc
Ruth on June 9, 2012 at 9:01 am

How do you manage to make me cry writing about a photo? ((hugs)). xx
Anne-Marie on June 9, 2012 at 2:47 pm

There seems to be a space, where he’s standing in the middle of three of his sisters. Probably looking in the same direction as Ben, probably more blurry because he’s constantly moving… He’s always with you all. Lovely picture, beautiful post. Hugs xx
- merry on June 9, 2012 at 3:11 pm
  
  I thought I saw that too. Thank you. (though you did make me cry… )
Jeanette on June 9, 2012 at 6:31 pm

Yep, I see him too. x
Cheryl on June 9, 2012 at 9:06 pm

He’ll always be with you in your hearts and minds, where it counts the most. *hugs*
Debbie on June 9, 2012 at 10:55 pm

I saw the photo over at MerrilyMe before I came over here. It’s beautiful!
Hannah F on June 9, 2012 at 11:02 pm

Yes, he’s there, always will be x
Elizabeth on June 11, 2012 at 12:20 am

He will always be there in your hearts. Lovely photo. x
Jenn on June 11, 2012 at 2:12 pm

Lovely photo and yes, he is always there. xx
Kerry on June 12, 2012 at 10:49 am

I see what Anne-Marie sees too, he is there he will always be there, and it is a lovely photo xx