On this day

On this day, 19 years ago, I attended the funeral of one of my school friends, a boy aged just 17. That was one of the saddest days of my life.

On this day 5 years ago, I found out I was pregnant and saying it out loud caused horror. That was one of the most frightening days of my life.

On this day 1 year ago, I took pictures of my little boy with his eyes open and we looked at each other and I thought he was getting better. That was one of the best days of my life.

Today. Just a day in the garden. Nothing special, nothing dreadful, no fear, no tears.


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  1. Sophia says

    Hi Merry, April 11th has started over here. I’ll be thinking of you all today, and of beautiful Freddie. I’m so sorry he’s not with you, in amongst your loving family. Wishing you company and support in the grief today, how ever the day plays out.
    Sophia from Glow.

  2. says

    Sounds like April 10th had enough baggage before 2010.

    I’m glad you not only had the chance to look into Freddie’s eyes but also that you have a good memory of that time despite how things ended. Sending you love .

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