In conversation with friends the other day, I realised I have become a bit of a recluse in some way, possibly a little bit pathetically so. It isn’t that we don’t go out, we do – we see plenty of people and the girls do everything they should and want to – but I’ve stopped going places where I can’t make a reasonable prediction about how emotionally safe it is and I normally only go places with another adult, either a friend, or Max.
This seemed like something to be nipped in the bud before it went any further, so on Friday we went to Activity World. I figured the pm would have less babies and toddlers so we went then and I sat an made bracelets for a couple of hours while the girls ran wild. It was fine and we stayed until the one newish baby there started to wail, which felt a bit much and we were due to leave then any way. it was a small step, but I was proud of myself for that. It is one thing to grieve and need time and space and another to slip into ‘mad with cats’ territory.
Saturday morning was another small step for me and Fran. She was invited to take her bracelets (free shipping on MadeMerrily Etsy at the moment with 10% from her and a matched 10% from us going to the Japan Appeal, use discount code JPSHIP) to a coffee morning at someone’s house in town. She did really well, sold quite a few bracelets and talked very confidently to people who wanted to know about her. I as proud
After that there was a lot of running about to dancing exams, lessons, rugby and then in the afternoon of Sunday the big girls ran with Max and Amelie and I went out to start the Couch2-5K challenge. We did the first workout and were very proud of ourselves I’m REALLY not built for running but we did 20 minutes of alternate 1 minute walking running and walking with 5 minute walks at each end. Then we went off swimming and I did 25 lengths but had to keep ahead of Fran who did 20 and Maddy who did 13! Was very impressed as they’ve not had lessons really so seeing they’ve finally learned how not to drown was good
Apparently I need to do the running thing more than once though
Now I need to finish off a knitted project and then start planning some seed planting. Busy week this week, which will hopefully stop me thinking too much. Have an art day to blog too